Jan 27, 2014

at 3:33 PM

A breakaway.

Right now at this point of life, I would say it's a turning point. 27th of January? What did I do since 2014 came? Trust me very soon it will be 2015. But before everything flies, I want to just grab hold of this moment and perhaps with a mental stop motion button for me to press.

There goes my first semester of Foundation. I could still remember the first few weeks in class where I was still so excited about uni life. Well of course I still am enjoying the things I do. 3 days ago was my last day of class, I submitted 2 assignments on the same day, and I was physically and mentally worn out. I'm not gonna write every detail here as there were really too much to talk about. Thanks to those who has constantly asked about my condition, thanks to those who helped. Thanks. The moment I submitted the last assignment it was really a relief to me.. I couldn't stop seeing God's grace and how He was with me throughout the hassle. I won't say my work is good, but I know I'm definitely gonna improve, because I told God I'm doing everything for Him, no other reason. =)

First of all my English Play was perfect, I think. We practiced till 3am just the day before presentation. Lecturer liked our story, thanks to the guys in our group, they wrote the script :D Lecturer commended me for my acting, which was rare because I hardly get that. Or maybe because I don't always get to act. :x Well she promised she'll give our group above 20 out of 25. Our hard work paid off, my group was awesome.

From the left
Kavi :: Sashsi :: Thevan :: me :: Gracia :: Fara

before presentation, they insisted to put on make-up.

below are pictures during practices.

Secondly it was my Computer Graphics poster. I thought I was good with it but turned out it was pretty bad. I showed my senior my poster he terus said 'memang x boleh pakai' ouchh much. Haha. But I was cool with it because I know I did not put in enough effort. I kinda neglected the poster and only did it in one night. Gotta buck up Joey!

Then it was my Photography. My first submission got rejected because of the lighting and shits. This lecturer is the strictest one among all, 80% of my classmates' work also got rejected. At least I wasn't alone D: So I went back and adjusted the lighting, then sent for printing again. Second time of printing was at a different shop, way cheaper, but the quality sucks. So it made no difference, my second submission imo was worse. But care no more, I submitted anyway. I don't expect high marks for photography. =(

Thanks to model Evan for bearing with my unprofessional skills. Thanks for walking with me to everywhere for good spots. In the end we still completed the task, can't thank you more, my last minute help! =)

One of my favorite shot.

Next it's le Life Drawing. Nothing much about it, just that it was my first time drawing and colouring on a sugar paper with oil pastel. Many has given me positive comments, but I still think I could do better, if I had better skills. 

before and after.

below are some of my homework I did when I was half asleep.

For my 5th assignment, it was le Creative Studies. I don't have pictures to show, but this subject is also one of the not-so-important subject to me. Except for one night where I was up till morning to do an essay of 1.5k words. Seriously that could possibly be the longest essay I've done. Long more way to go? I know. Well this was a group assignment, so to cut the long story short I only did the essay. The final video clip was done by my leader, it wasn't very good because we didn't have enough time, but I still appreciate each one of them.

Lastly it was the most time-killing subject ever. Everybody is afraid of it, the one and only Visual Research & Communication in other words VRC. The final project was done on an A1 canvas. Something new to me yet challenging at the same time. Thanks to my procrastination, I had to stay up almost 2 nights in a row to rush this piece of work. I wasn't very satisfied but in the end lecturer kinda liked it, so it was a miracle.

There were dramas in between, there were hard times in between, there were times when I almost gave up my undone work. But I have gone through them with the strength from Above, I am grateful. Thank You Lord, thank You..

This was how my living room looked like after my last project was submitted.
Instead of tidying them right away I actually took time to capture this mess, because they remind me of all the sweat and weariness and stress and whatnot.

Then I snapped, and told myself,
it's just the beginning.

Other than the endless work, I had other activities in between too. First it was my trip with family to I-city. My first time there. Nothing special there, but it was the warmth of my family that made the trip a perfect one.

Next trip was to Tanjung Sepat together with family and sister's boyfie. I so wished baby was with me..to enjoy together. But, I could only imagine..

outfit of the day.

and some favorite shots below.

couple no.1

couple no.2

couple no.3! :D


so much loves..
and then i imagined 'him' with me, holding my hand, walking across the sand, just that..


And some other random happenings.

High school friend's 21st birthday.
I bet there'll be more parties soon, since it's my batch to be 21 this year.

 Speaking of that, boyfriend just turned 21 bout 3 weeks ago. I did not have much time to prepare a lot, what I did was this.

And I surprised him through webcam.
Written on the chipsmore was 'Happy 21st Birthday Baby' with little starts that people use to decorate cupcakes or cakes.

I don't know how much he appreciated it, but I really hope he would remember this.. Then one week later was our 4th anniversary. I had no time even for the cookies above, let alone doing better things for him. It was such a waste because that period of time was my busiest period, with all the submissions and stuff. Sorry love..

Just as my title says, right now to me, it's a breakaway, from everything.
I'm taking a break from uni, taking a break from the crowd, taking a break from my complicated relationship, a break just for myself to rest emotionally mentally and physically. I need to regain my strength, I need alone time to clear my mind and just be away a little while from reality. I need to take this time to be closer to God, to hear from Him, to let Him take charge of the rest of my life.

I'm 21 soon, I want to be ready to step into adulthood.
I can't stay young forever.
It's time to take up the responsibility, and look ahead into the future.  

There are so many questions running in my head.
And only God, knows the reason behind them.


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